Monday, June 9, 2008

Things I miss

I've been on this planet for 33 years and I have lived with at least one other person for 31 of those years. Living alone isn't all bad. I get to do what I want, when I want. I never have to share the bathroom. If I put a bag of cherries in the fridge, I know that when I go looking for it later that it's going to be there. I always leave the toilet seat down.

Yet there are times when I miss being around people so much that my chest aches. Here are some of the things I miss
  • The smell of bacon when I first wake up in the morning and the sounds of someone making me breakfast

  • Talking

  • Not talking and just being

  • Snuggling in bed

  • Being goofy with someone

  • That feeling of joy when I'd discover that I had an unexpected morning or evening to myself after weeks of no Me Time

  • Road trips at night when it's raining and I'm snuggled under a blanket, eating junk food, listening to great music, and talking to someone I can't get enough of

  • Sharing moments of reality-TV-induced incredulousness or delight

  • Singing harmony (or trying to)

  • Feeling a bit sick and laying down on the couch while someone moves around in the kitchen, listening to CBC Radio 1 and puttering around

  • Lazy Sundays filled with Scrabble, chai, knitting, fires in the fireplace, and homemade meals



Days like today, when the loneliness is palpable, I long to be a kid again and living with my mom, feeling safe, warm, and loved.

3 comments:

  1. Oh, the sounds and smell of someone else making breakfast are the best - I would miss those terribly too.

    But I have learned to like my alone time and when the hubby comes home from work, I sometimes find myself a little territorial. I need to remind myself that he lives here too. LOL.

    I hope you are well. Hugs to you.

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  2. What?? I never wake up to that wonderful smell!! lol I tend to do 99% of the cooking in this house! And my food does always seem to disappear from the fridge, especially the strawberries.

    I'm so used to iving with someone now that I tend to get a little jumpy when I'm home alone at night. It would probably do me some good though!

    Great post!

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  3. Okay, we have to hang out soon. Are you around for the long weekend?

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